Cause thats close to how this feels. 

We have pretty much everything done. Photographer, check. Venues, check. Date, check. Dress, check. Bridesmaids dresses, check. 

We just got our engagement pictures done, and let me tell you, they turned out FABULOUS! I couldn’t believe how amazing they look. I give all the credit to our photographer. She is absolutely amazing, and I can’t wait to see what she does for our wedding. I know they will be perfect! I never could have dreamed that our pictures would turn out this amazing. The best compliment I’ve gotten on them is: “You can tell you are both really happy”. THANK. GOD. 

What more could I ask for in my pictures? Its one thing to tell people how happy you are with someone, and how much you love them, but to have it come through in pictures? That’s tough, but also the most amazing thing. Of course, that was my goal. I wanted people to be able to tell, that with just one look at one picture, we are absolutely and incredibly in love and beyond happy. And that happened. 

Now comes the next step: Save the Dates. Which we do have time for since we have just under a year until the wedding. BUT Save the Dates also mean a guest list. (Insert whimpering sounds here)

I knew we were going to have a ton of people on our list. With just both of our families, the list was long. That was unavoidable. I have a huge family, with 4 sides. C’s family isn’t as big, but its still a big family. But then once we got it all down on paper, and we aren’t done yet, the heart attack and anxiety set in. HOW ARE WE GOING TO HAVE ROOM FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE?

C’s answer: “we’ll just move the reception”. Well I’m sorry, but that’s not an option. We can make that location work, and we will. Once we refine our list more. 

The numbers are incredible. So far we have just above 150 names listed for invites to send out. But once we include all the people that the one invite includes, we are at nearly 450+ people. And don’t forget, our list isn’t done yet. I know I don’t have everyone my parents will want to invite, C’s parents want, or who C wants. 

Now, I know everyone we invite wont come. That’s just a fact. Which is fine. But my lord. This is incredibly insane. What are we thinking? 

And how in the world are we EVER going to address that many envelopes? Or pay for that postage? I think my arms might fall off when it comes time to send them out! 

But as crazy as this is making me, which really isn’t all that much yet, its all worth it. I couldn’t imagine not inviting the people we have so far. They are all so important to us that we have to have them there. Or at least let them know that we want them there. And honestly, none of it matters as long as we are surrounded by the people we love, and I get to marry the man I love more than anything. 


Officially made my first dress appointment today! AHHHHHHHH! I cannot explain the excitement of being able to finally go try on wedding dresses!
Im so incredibly nervous though! I know I wont end up buying one this weekend. Im just going to look and get an idea of what style of dress I want to have.
A line? Ball gown? Fit and flare? Mermaid? Trumpet?
Satin? Chiffon? Taffeta? Lace?
But really. No lace. Our “theme” is country/rustic type of thing. So I feel like EVERYONE who does that type of wedding wears an all lace dress. I mean they are absolutely beautiful so I cant blame them, and I do love lace as much as the next person, but I dont think I can let myself do that.
Nothing about this is going to be your average, typical wedding. Its going to be ours. So I dont want to do the type of dress that is expected for the type of wedding we are having.
But I just love dresses so I really just want to try on every single dress I can!

I. Cant. Wait.


I’ve heard of people having their wedding recorded. But never even considered it for my own wedding. Why would I pay someone to record the day, when I’m already paying a photographer to do just that? I don’t want any more cameras shoved in my or my families faces than I already have to have.
However, my stepmom is set on us getting one. “Not everyone will always be here and you’ll love it when you get older”.
News flash. No one will always be here as we age. People will leave. Friendships may end. Relatives will pass away. It’s a part of life. That’s why I have a photographer. To capture those moments.
I get why people do it, if they want it. But it isn’t something I want to do. I don’t even think we would ever watch the video. If I have no intentions of watching the video, why would I spend money for it? I’m not going to do something I’m not 100% certain I want to do for the wedding. But she still insists on us doing it.
I get why she wants it, and that’s fine, but I’m not spending more money on something I don’t want.
Planning this wedding to be how C and I want it, is going to cause so many issues with family. Their opinions do matter, and will always be considered and welcomed, however we won’t do something for OUR wedding that we don’t want to do. We only get one shot to do this so we are doing it exactly how we want. Not how everyone else wants, and then maybe a little bit of what we want.


Making decisions for a wedding is possibly the most stressful thing I’ve ever encountered. I’ve gone through 4 years of college, dealt with the stress of possibly applying for law school, taking extra credits each semester while living off campus, and numerous other things, and Im still about 100% sure this is more stressful than all of those combined.
Trying to make this 100% perfect to what both C and I want is insane. Not that we want crazy, over the top, unrealistic things, its just deciding absolutely what we want!
We’ve been engaged since December 23, 2013. We literally just set a date two weeks ago. I mean why rush? But deciding the perfect date seemed almost impossible. But eventually we both agreed on a date (thank God) but the next step was locations.
You would think we were planning on committing a serious crime or something! We looked at and weighed the pros and cons of millions of different places. We told each other what we did and didn’t like about each place, and finally found the places that we had more pros than cons for, and that we could actually envision our wedding being there.
And surprisingly, choosing a photographer we both could agree on was the hardest of them all! I found a girl that I LOVED. Her packages were reasonable, her work is phenomenal, and she is really fun and creative with what she can do, as well as perfect prices!
However, C wasn’t as enthusiastic about this. He thought we needed to find other options. This lead to a HUGE fight. Let me tell you. I mean, Id done all this work, with no input from him because he refused to tell me his opinion, and when I finally get it all done and figured out he tells me no? YOUVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!
But, I was a good sport and was open to other options. Of course I would compare them to the girl I wanted, but I was willing to look at who he found. Unfortunately for him, we still ended up going with the girl I originally wanted, because of other circumstances we couldn’t work with.

Finding a way to get two people’s personalities to come through in a wedding is extremely complicated. Getting one persons personality to come through is hard enough, but to mix together 2, can be the hardest thing ever done. However, it is not impossible! It can be done. It just takes so much more work than I ever anticipated.
However, Im so glad I did the work, because our wedding is going to be absolutely perfect!


About the only decision we’ve managed to make for the wedding so far is our colors. Burlap, lighter bright green, and coral for accents. BUT C WONT TELL ME HIS OPINION ON ANYTHING ELSE!

Most importantly, the date and location.

We know we want to get married in June 2015. But he wants to wait to see where we decide on ceremony and reception venues first, which is understandable as we have to know where to book first. BUT whenever I ask him about it, he wont give me an answer. He doesnt think that we should worry about this yet, as we have a year and a half, but this is kind of the most important part!

I know where I want it, and it really wont be as expensive as everyone thinks, so thats a huge plus! Especially since we are trying to go as simple as possible, so that if it came down to it, we could pay for everything ourselves, even though we both know we wont have to.

But from there, its cake, food, decorations, dresses, groomsmen attire, people for ceremony, and so much more!

I know we are just getting into it, so its not even half of what we will have to do when it comes down to it, and I know that by the time the wedding is here we are both going to want to rip our hair out!

This is definitely going to be an interesting wedding to plan, but I do know that Im marrying the man of my dreams, so even though we will likely hate each other at points, its all worth it.


Every girl dreams of the day when the man you are going to be with for the rest of your life finally puts a ring on it. The romance, the love, the ring! No matter what kind of girl you are, at some point in your life you have spent some time day dreaming about what that day/moment will be like.
For some its incredibly extravagant and romantic, and for others its just a simple thing.
For me, Ive always wanted something that perfectly represented us. And thats what it was.

Ours was insanely simple, and it was absolutely perfect.
C proposed where it all began for us. Where we met. Where we first started spending time together. Where we first spent nights together. His house. (I know, insanely romantic right? Hahah)

C isn’t the guy to get insanely creative and mushy and go all out for a proposal, or really anything. The simple way is the best way for him. And Im perfectly fine with that. It suits him absolutely perfectly, and I would never ask anything else of him.
I on the other hand, can be overly excited and sometimes creative and let the idea of something get me more excited about the little things than anything else, which could easily be why the simple proposal worked out the best for us.

He knew he had to talk to my father first. For me, and for him, family is the most important thing in our lives. Without our parents, we wouldn’t be who or where we are today. We may be one of the last young couples to do that, but it had to happen.

Once he did though, it was game on.

I got home from work, and he got home from his parents, and it seemed like it was normal. I had no hopes of us getting engaged this year, mainly because he had been telling me practically everyday for months that it wasn’t going to happen. Even after he told me for awhile that it was going to. We did the usual things we always do. He did his chores, I cleaned and cooked supper, and then we just kind of relaxed around the house.

Until he started being incredibly cuddly and mushy and sweet. And anyone who knows C, knows that he is not normally like that. Sure, he can be sweet and nice on a normal basis, but not overly. Just seeing it in movies, or when we are out makes him sick. He hates the over the top crazy stuff.

I knew something was up, but I just kind of brushed it off. I mean, stuff like that doesn’t happen everyday, so I couldn’t over think it!

Until I went and layed in bed. He came in and sat next to me and was telling me how much I mean to him, and how much he loves me. He went on and on and on. I just kept smiling. At this point, I knew he was about to do something big.

Then, he pulled out the box. “I never want to be with anyone else, for the rest of my life. I love you more than I can ever say. Will you please marry me?”

I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t do anything but smile. I mean, this was finally happening! I have been waiting for this moment for over a year! The man I love more than anything, is sitting in front of me with an absolutely amazing ring, asking me to marry him. AM I DREAMING?!
I just hugged him and kissed him, and hugged him more. “Well? Will you answer me, damn it?!”

YES! How could I say anything but that? It was perfect!

Now I get to marry the man of my dreams, my best friend, the most important person in my life, the future father of our children. And I couldn’t be happier. I couldn’t be more excited. There aren’t words that can properly describe my feelings, and how to express them.

I look at my ring every day and just think about how blessed I am to be able to have this beautiful diamond on my finger. How lucky I am to be able to spend my life with this truly amazing guy. But then I think of all the wedding plans.

We may have until June 2015 to get the wedding planned, but I can’t stop thinking about everything RIGHT NOW. I am so consumed in the excitement of all of this, that I just want to have stuff finalized and decided. And watch it all come together, to be the perfect wedding I always dreamed of. I will absolutely love planning this, and can’t wait to see what it all becomes and turns into.